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Afraid of Everything
By Sammy Ginsberg For Papa Joe Sitting on his green leather chair with the wood arm rests,the one he’s had for decadesnow in room 757 at The Variel.“I just feel so afraid.”his eyes twinkle blue and he looks like a little boy,with his yellow shirttucked into his underwear.“What are you afraid of, Grandpa?”I ask, Top…
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Update #7: Lifestyle Goals
Yay! I’ve completed stage one – housing! Now I’m on stage two – lifestyle goals. Although if you ask my cousin, we did not finish housing. Our kitchen is still pretty messy and I did not decorate the bathroom yet into the Feminist Toilet. Also our shower keeps flooding! The reason that these tasks haven’t…
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Year 2
Well, as you know I did survive year two, but it was worse- much worse. That summer off though – was brilliantly delightful. I had made it. I survived my first year and got to my first ever teacher summer. I flew to London and Europe, where I hadn’t gone for three years since COVID…
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Year 1
Okay, so I titled this originally “Problem 1 ELA” but then when I was in yoga all the thoughts that came up were about the full-inclusion academy so then I was like, well obviously I want to write about that but then I was like – they won’t understand why the problem was so bad…
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I am able to get my needs met and my boundaries respected
When I stopped working, I started going to yoga twice a day. My therapist said, without this, they didn’t understand how I was still functioning and hadn’t completely lost it. This going to yoga was my medicine. To help me feel safe in my own body. To connect the mind and body together to rest…
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I hate my life and who I have become to be a teacher
This was the thought that I couldn’t control. This was the thought that would cause me to start crying and collapsing inward whenever anything didn’t go as expected. This was the thought that caused me to be nostalgic and constantly referencing when I lived in London and worked in publishing, or when I lived in…
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Creating my own in-patient program
To begin to heal, I need to have safety and stability. This is what in-patient programs do, they take a person out of their environment where they do not feel safe, and place them in a safe environment so that they can heal. While this works for some, for others the in-patient program, or mental…
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Crazy for Loving You
By Sammy Ginsberg Sitting in the center of Huddersfield on a bench listening to a busker and watching life go by. If anyone knew that a girl who grew up in Calabasas, starred in Trainspotting 2, and had three nipples was sitting on a bench where King Street hits New Street, they would say, “What…
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Buy the Cow
By Sammy Ginsberg For most of the female existence, the value of a woman has always been defined by her relationship to man. In Genesis, “Lord God made a woman from the rib”. For eating the apple after being tricked by the serpent, her curse is “[her] desire will be for [her] husband, and he…