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Update #9: Week 3 Crafting
My mind is all over the place and I am overwhelmed and foggy. I’ve been here before, this is a form of decision fatigue caused by the existential crisis I’m having over whether to leave teaching or not. It’s been a roller coaster. While I had been instable for a while, teetering on the edge,…
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Update #7: Lifestyle Goals
Yay! I’ve completed stage one – housing! Now I’m on stage two – lifestyle goals. Although if you ask my cousin, we did not finish housing. Our kitchen is still pretty messy and I did not decorate the bathroom yet into the Feminist Toilet. Also our shower keeps flooding! The reason that these tasks haven’t…
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Update #6: Big Work Update!
OMG! We did it. After four years, FOUR YEARS!!! Of asking, requesting, fighting to have two curriculums to teach (instead of four, four, three, three, and THEN FOUR AGAIN! This is when I hit my ceiling!!), they offerd it to me!!!! The battle is over, except it wasn’t just a battle. This has been a…
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Project Stability Sammy: Kitchen & Relationship With Self
This morning I spent thinking about jobs and money instead of prioritizing my housing. I went in circles about what I could do researching different kinds of opportunities. I kept thinking of this TedTalk I watched yesterday while cleaning the living room about by Tracy McMillan about needing to marry yourself before you can have…
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Project Stability: Housing, Living Room
Today, I am working on the living room. At our house the door opens up into the living room so this is also our front entry. I want it to be exciting and peaceful and welcoming when people come in. My cousin and I are going for this funky fun 70s vibe. We’ve got some…
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Project Stability Sammy: Relationship Reading List
As I process my burnout, I feel super strongly that the main cause of my burn out was because I didn’t have the relationships I needed to support me. More than that, that the relationships I did have were draining, unhealthy and not safe for me aka “toxic”. I worry at times if I was…
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Project Stability Sammy
I am unstable. I know that. I am unstable, I am unwell. I am mentally unhealthy. That is why I am on sick leave right now from work. Again. Twice this year. Imagine humpty dumpty on a wall and having a great big fall, and then putting yourself together again – this is my second…